Had something to say, But I did not!

It is so hard to sometimes follow what God puts in your heart to do. I sometimes analyze everything and then in the end I regret not doing so! How important is it so say a kind word to someone, or maybe encourage that person when you see them down and out? I failed this weekend by not doing what I was being lead to do! I have a friend who about a month or so ago was in the hospital and was told some news. What it was I do not know he would not reveal that to his friends.

I saw him drop some weight in one month and thought well maybe this had something to do with his heart or whatever, but it looked like he was making changes that maybe the doctor had asked him to do. Well he grew distance and he was no longer the man I or all his friend knew. Some reached out and try to talk to him. I was going to call him and while I was not gonna ask what the issue was I was going to ask if he wanted to maybe pray together and let God handle what was wrong.

I stood in my kitchen pondering that if I called he may not want to talk to me since some had called already and I would be intruding or would he see it as me just not minding my own business? So I placed the call off and decided to wait. That maybe I should not get involved. But it was something that God laid on my heart and I failed Him! I did not call.

Today I got a call from another friend with the bad news that sadly my friend committed suicide. I know that maybe the words we may have spoken about may have not stopped it. Maybe they could have. I can not comprehend what he was going through, and I never would have thought that he would do such a thing. I write this to just say that when we are lead to say something we should. When we say what God has asked us to say, just say it! God will back up His words.

We are messengers and only messengers. How  do we answer to God that we put off His message and decided to not do it because we thought better than Him? I am so sad that I was not able to chat with him if even for one last time. Nothing was said, but so much happened!

JC you will be missed. Rest in Peace my friend!

God Bless,

N4KMA